June 27, 1988
Dear M-
I'm sorry I haven't written since I've been out here in San Francisco. I'm currently sitting in the library of a commune called "New Moon House" that I'm probably going to move into. I'm here for the first day of a three day stay to make sure that everybody can get along before I move in for real. The commune rents the whole building so there is a yard, two garages, and several bedrooms in the basement. There is a total of nine adults and three children living here. I am really excited and happy to have found this place. They (I want to say "we" but I guess that would be premature) eat together every night. A guy named Pete is running a free store out of the garage. It's generally excellent.
     Jessica is being worked to death by her professors. Summer school started the day after we got here. I don't even get to see her on weekdays. We've been having problems with me feeling insecure and neglected but that's ok.
     I'm really disturbed that you could read Henry Miller and call it "simple fun". He is an utter woman-hater. I'm surprised it takes a guy to tell you that.

Love,
B

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                    July 4, 1988
Dear M-
My roommate Pete (who runs the free store) and I went to a gay bar called "Stud" to have pictures of our penises taken. Somebody was making a movie called DICK and needed lots of stills of penises. They gave us a Polaroid to keep and three drink tickets. We'll get to go to a screening of the movie when it's finished. (I wonder if I'll recognize myself.) It was a fun outing; I'd never been to a gay bar before.
     When I told Jessica about getting pictures of our penises taken, she got the idea of photographing me standing on my head with my glasses perched on top of my balls so that the penis is like a big nose and the balls are the eyeballs. What a hoot. I'll definitely send you a shot when we get them developed!
Pete and I went to buy a cool, feminist vibrator for his girlfriend. I got some cool Japanese rubbers there. You can leave the box right by your bed and nobody'd know what's in them because all it says in English is "Yamabuki #1".
     Did I tell you about Pete's job interview audition at the gay strip club? He had to go masturbate in front of a room full of men but he couldn't get a hard-on so he didn't get the job.
     That's a real drag about your roommate wanting to screw you two days after moving in. I'm surprised an Asian guy would try that. Maybe it has something to do with the language barrier. You should only rent to gay men. They wouldn't be trying that and would be 100X more interesting to have around and NEATER. But I guess you saw it coming 10 miles off!

Love,
B               

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                 July 6, 1988
Dear M-
So these Japanese rubbers are too small. I had a terrible time getting them on. After two tries we had to give up. So then Jessica told me about this guy she'd been with whose penis was about this big. Maybe a little thicker - I'm not sure. I'm freaked out because I didn't know that a full grown man's penis could be so small! Oh, I forgot to mention that this guy was Japanese. I feel bad for him. I know if my penis were that small, I wouldn't be able to relax about it ever. It must be a real joy for him to go back to Japan where that's normal. That poor guy! She also told me about a guy whose penis was normal length but only about a finger's width thick! I didn't know such things existed! It would look like a cartoon!
      Did I tell you about the penis movie that Pete and I are going to be in? It's called DICK: A MOVIE. On the way out of the bar one of the guys asked us to show him our pictures and then he showed us one of this guy named Lorenzo who was HUGE! Did you ever see pictures of men whose penises were 15 or 20 inches long? It's pretty grotesque. But I really can't get over the fact that anyone could have a penis as small as what Jessica describes. Normal length and a finger's thickness - very bizarre. How does a man this size use a condom? That poor guy. Sorry to be repetitious.

Love,
B

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           July 9, 1988
           (Postcard of Golden Gate Bridge)
Hi M-
I'm moving. New Moon is driving me nuts. Too much responsibility. Too much spacey hippie mysticism crystal crap. Too much peculiar sexism from Pete. So there goes that.
     I'm working with this really nice guy from Vietnam or somewhere around there. His name is Dee. He has a really thick accent and is hard to understand. He went to Reno over the 4th of July and won $2200. Pretty funny. As I said, he's hard to talk to, but there's something about him that I really like.

Love,
B

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                July 12, 1988
Dear M-
I'm moving into this apartment I looked at today. It's kind of yuppie-ish but good taste is something hippie communalists lack.
     How is "Pathetic Moron" (your roommate) doing? I certainly hope he's not bugging you to screw him anymore. You should probably throw him out.
     Having all those discussions with Jessica has got me really curious about penis size. I'm trying to get my nerve up to ask Dee if I can see his or at least ask him about it.
      It turns out that Tish (who drove us all the way out here) has a mad crush on Jessica. They slept together once a few weeks ago and now she dotes on her constantly and generally acts like a worshipful school girl. I think it's cool that they had sex but I'm afraid Tish is pretty screwy. Jessica is kind of freaked out about it and I think Tish is going to move out of her house. I never liked Tish that much anyways. She was her best friend at Barnard that last semester, though, so Jessica's really wigged about it. They had planned to go to Japan together. She's very interested in her heritage. She calls herself a Jap squared - get it? Cause her mother's Japanese and her father's Jewish?
     My ex-girlfriend came over last night. She is now gay and about 100X nicer and more interesting now. I still feel kind of attracted to her. I never felt attracted to a lesbian before.
     Otherwise things with Jessica and me are pretty cool. We love each other a lot and the sex is excellent.
      There's a huge cool spider that lives in my room.

Love,
B

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            July 23, 1988
            (postcard of Mel's Diner)          
M-
No, I do not consider Jessica to be a lesbian. She only had that one encounter with Tish. I just spent a wonderful weekend with Jessica. She is a great woman.

B

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                                   July 30,1988
My Divine Miss M-
Where in the world did you get that spanking thing? It's hilarious. Kind of like "A Figure on the Town" of the heart.
     The worst thing happened to me the other night. Jessica and I were in bed and I had to pee. I didn't want to have to go by Tish to go to the bathroom so I decided to pee in a vase I had and throw it out later. Now the fool who made this vase put a ventilation hole of some type in the bottom - don't ask me why. It makes it useless for holding flowers and also for peeing in. So about one second after I started to pee, the pee started to drain out the little hole whose presence I was not aware of. It drained right down my leg and into a huge puddle on the floor while I hopped around hysterically trying to figure out what was happening. I ruined a pillow soaking it up. Lord!
     Dee said something really funny. We were talking about penis size and I said I don't have a big penis and he said, "But on your body, it looks huge!"

Your Whippin'Boy,
B
                       

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                   August 12, 1988
Listen M-
I think your roommate must be a mutant or something. I can't believe that all Japanese men are like that. You can see by looking at this rubber (enclosed) that the average Japanese penis must be pretty close to the average Caucasian penis. And you said yourself that the guy you called "Button" was a white guy. Although these rubbers are troublesome to put on, they aren't infinitesimal. It seems like Japanese men are maybe just more prone to having tiny penises. But it can't be that all Japanese men have three inch penises! I must say that your comments on Asian lovers tend to stem more from some quasi-racist misconceptions than from any real knowledge of any real practice. I am sure that Japanese women are used to small penises and do not feel that Japanese men have a deficiency that must be compensated for.
     I'm going through a very sexual period right now. Reading about sex a lot, talking about it and being horny all the time. I don't feel like having orgasms - just touching Jessica all the time, smelling her vagina, cuddling, etc. She got her period yesterday and is passing huge blood clots the size of prunes. I think it's fascinating.

Love,
B

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            August 27, 1988
            (Erotic Asian woodcut post card)
M!
I know Japanese men are smaller than white men! The part of your letter that I objected to was the part about the "traditionally skilled Asian lover" crap. I still maintain that this statement is based on some completely fictitious Western idea and I still find it offensive. I don't understand why we can argue so happily about most things and then get upset about this.
      I read yesterday that Japanese people characterize foreign men as being really horny all the time! Isn't that a crack up?

Sayonara!
B

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                     Sept. 8, 1988
Dear M-
Please don't write me anymore of this crap about sexual intercourse being inherently aggressive and male controlled. It is incredibly stupid and only pisses me off and makes me think badly of you.
     Jess is getting real fed up with living with Tish. It cracks me up. Tish tends to leave lots of thick black hairs everywhere. She's still using her razors and never buys her own. I left a couple of mine over there and she used those too. Jess told her not to use her razors anymore since you pointed out that she could get AIDS from them. PLUS after Tish uses them, they are so full of hairs that Jessica can't use them anyway.
     Tish bought this toothpaste that Jessica didn't like so Jess was squirting it all down the sink so that Tish would have to buy more. She's pretty mean to her. I can't imagine them going to Japan together now. There goes that.
     They're supposed to have their "big talk" today. I'll hear about it later I guess. Can you believe that midnight hike story I told you about on the phone? She is way out of control.
     I'm suddenly (STILL) curious about penis size. (Mainly small ones.) What's the smallest one you've ever seen besides "the Button'? Penises are so much easier to draw than vaginas!

Love,
B

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                September 25, 1988
                (Postcard of neon sign "girls!Girls!GIRLS!")
Dear M-
I have some mighty shocking news! Jess got a job - STRIPPING! She's doing it to save for Japan and she certainly knows what she's getting into. (Remember that paper she did at Barnard?) She's working in a peep-show type set-up with three other dancers at a time. It's strange but I respect her for her guts. We're leaving for Japan right after Christmas. Tish moved out. It is such a relief to be alone with Jess. I've been wearing her old sundresses around the apartment when I relax and find it very soothing.

Love,
B

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